Dear me, I forgive you.
I forgive you for all the times you doubted yourself. For all the times you thought you weren’t good enough. For all the times you hated your body and didn’t eat. For all the times you hated the way you look. For all the times you got angry with yourself for failing. For all the times you thought you were stupid. For all the times you said you’d go for a run and didn’t. For all the times you binge watched TV instead of being productive. For all the times you talked yourself out of an amazing opportunity. For all the times you felt like giving up.
You shouldn’t ever doubt yourself. You are capable of so much more than you give yourself credit for. You have always been good enough, in fact, you’re more than good enough and anyone that doesn’t see that isn’t worth your time. Your body is amazing. It housed and grew beautiful babies. Fuel it, nurture it, eat all your favorite foods, take your vitamins, and drink water. You are perfect just the way you are and all those things you hate about yourself someone else loves, you should too. Failure is just a stepping stone to success, learn from it instead of beating yourself up and getting angry. You are smart, always have been and always will be because you are always willing to learn. Knowledge is power. Don’t beat yourself up for not going on a run when you said you would, life is busy. Binge watching TV is your own little form of self care and it’s okay to take a day here and there to relax. You deserve it. There are always going to be new opportunities coming your way, maybe the ones you missed weren’t meant to be and that’s okay.
Thank you so much for never giving up. I know life gets hard and giving up feels like the only option. It’s too easy to throw in the towel and call it quits, but look at you. You are still here. You didn’t give up. You are dealing with the bad days, the rough days, the why is this happening to me days and you are still thriving. You’re not where you wanted to be and you’re not where you thought you’d be, but look at all you’ve accomplished. You have done amazing things and you are going to do amazing things. Keep refusing to give up. Keep letting out all those frustrations out and keep pushing forward.
Life is very complicated. The things people say are going to circulate around in your head. They’re going to be louder than you want them to be. The bad days are going to feel like they outweigh the good days, but I promise you they don’t. I forgive you for all the hell I’ve been through. I’m my own worst critic and it makes things harder, but I’m learning. I’m growing, thriving, and doing my best. Some days my best will be amazing and other days it’ll barely feel like I’m hanging on, but I will still be doing my best. I’m so incredibly proud of you. You’re hard on yourself, but you’re learning not to be. You’ve accomplished amazing things. You are an amazing, talented, beautiful, brilliant woman. Take care of yourself. Never give up. Always do your best. Love like there’s no tomorrow.