Motherhood is the greatest, hardest, and most unpredictable journey I’ve ever been on. I wish I could say I didn’t have regrets, but I do. I’m only human. We all have regrets from time to time. My biggest regret is waiting and wanting the moments I now wish would last forever.
I can’t wait for my my child to start walking. I can’t wait for my child to start school. I can’t wait for my child to be more independent. I can’t wait….I can’t wait. We constantly say we can’t wait for all these little moments that seem so small and yet so big. Then when those moments happen, it’s over and we’re waiting for the next thing. We’re always waiting for the next thing until one day there’s no more next things. Everything is over. They’re grown up and moved out and they now have their own family. We can’t wait for those moments because we are overwhelmed. Because motherhood is hard and there is no breaks. Because we just want to pee by ourselves.
I’ve been there. I was an I can’t wait kind of mom. Now I would give anything to have those moments back. Just yesterday my daughter lost a tooth. She literally came in with her tooth in her hand telling me that she lost it. No mom look I have a wiggly tooth. Nothing. Just a tooth already lost and less excitement than usual about the tooth fairy coming. It’s always the lost little moments that catch you off guard. The little moments you lose everyday that you thought nothing about until they’re gone. The moments that just seem so routine in our daily lives.
I know we have to let our children grow up. I know that’s just a part of life. That doesn’t mean it doesn’t suck though. It really sucks. The days are long and the years are short. Those moments we wait for are the moments we want back when they’re gone. You have your whole life to pee by yourself. Go to the grocery store by yourself. And all the other things you long to do alone. You only have a short time where your children want to be around you all the time. Sooner than you expect, they will grow up. They cook for themselves. They drive themselves everywhere. They don’t want to be anywhere near you because your embarrassing. Live in the moment. All the good, bad, loud, messy, frustrating moments because someday you won’t have them and you WILL want them back.