Back in July I wrote about the 30 crazy goals/things I wanted to accomplish while I was 30. You can read that here. The idea behind it was great and I really wish things had turned out differently, but it’s 2020 and 2020 sure has been a crazy whirlwind.
The goals covered just about everything in my life. Working on myself, being a better mom, being a better friend, taking better care of my body, drinking more water, stopping bad habits, making good habits, being outside more. They covered everything. It was basically an over-ambitious idea I had and just went for it. My intent was to better myself in all aspects of life and be the best version of myself I could be. To go out and live my best life while improving my life. I honestly forgot about it until I found it one day in July.
Any other year my big crazy ambitious list of goals would have been so easy to complete. I would have flown through it like a daily to-do list. This year was unlike any other. A pandemic, quarantine, distance teaching my kids, lost jobs, and so much uncertainty. My 30 list no longer became important, everything else did. Very few things were crossed off my list and I’m okay with that. For the first time ever I’m okay with the fact almost nothing got done.
Throughout it all I learned a lot about myself this year. I learned I set crazy high expectations for myself. Expectations that are almost impossible and I feel like a failure when I don’t meet those expectations. I learned I don’t need a list of goals to have an awesome year. Despite all the downs and there was a lot of downs, this year has been good. I’ve grown, I’ve accomplished so much, and I’ve improved my life all around. I learned I am an incredible, motivated, busy individual that needs to relax more. Finding that out was a good thing.
I know, I know it sounds like a bunch of excuses. It’s not. I wanted so bad to finish that list. It didn’t happen. Life happened. Life came in full force this year. I’m not upset about it. I’m not disappointed in myself. And I’m not making excuses. I didn’t finish my 30 goals list, but I accomplished so much more than I ever thought possible this year. It has been a really good year for me personally and I regret nothing.
Maybe I didn’t finish my list and yeah that sucks, but that doesn’t mean I’m a failure. I’ve grown, I’ve bettered myself, and I’m thriving despite it. Life is crazy and things change and happen so fast in life. Goals need to be adjusted from time to time to fit that. That’s the awesome thing about goals, when you set them for yourself you have the power to change them. You can change the goal and still get the same result. Keep thriving, keep working on you, and keep your head up.