This week has been so hard and stressful at our house. The kids are adjusting to being home for who knows how long. They’re adjusting to doing what school work they can online. They’re adjusting to not seeing their friends and having different schedules then the ones they’ve had since September. Me, I’m just trying to keep my sanity. I thrive on a schedule. Usually big breaks in school (Christmas Break, Spring Break, Summer) are on set schedules. Parents are mentally and emotionally prepared for those. This we were not prepared for and we’re all struggling to adjust. It’s been a LONG week.
Last night I was talking to a friend on the phone, the only adult interaction I get these days. I was telling her about my week and how defeated I felt. Even though I was doing my best I felt like a failure. I’m not built to homeschool my kids. They will probably suffer during this time. I am my biggest critic, my greatest doubter. I am the one thing holding me back from anything and everything.. As she listened to me vent and doubt myself, she stopped me to tell me, “Girl stop it! You are amazing, beautiful, wonderful, and the best mom I know. You are doing great things for your kids and they’ll be better for it. Stop doubting yourself. You got this.” She was absolutely right.
As I sat after our phone call crying because I don’t deserve someone as sweet and amazing as her in my life, I realized what amazing friends I have. Friends have come and gone over my lifetimes, way more than I can count. The small group of friends I have are these beautiful, amazing gems that have been hiding in plain sight. They’re the people I relate to the most. The people that would do anything for me or my kids in a heartbeat, no questions asked. THe people that would do anything for me and I’d do anything for them. THese are the people that can make me laugh, cry, and want to start a mob all in one conversation. They are the people that keep me grounded and remind me why I love them.
Think about all your friends have done for you. Drove a town over or thousands of miles just to see you. Went to the store for you or your kid(s) when someone was sick. Brought over or paid for your coffee. Called you sensing you needed them when you were on the verge of a breakdown. Talked you out of giving up. Supported your business or latest adventure. Showed up to holidays or birthdays. Motivated you to start that thing you were unsure about. Called just to hear your voice. Listened while you vented about your day. Talked you out of or into cutting your hair. Loved your kid(s) like they were their own. Friends never stop doing anything and everything for you.
Friends are the beautiful caring people that are always there for you no matter what you need and will always be there. They are the people brought into your life to help you thrive to the best of your abilities. They are the invaluable people that are your non-blood family. Love them with everything you can. Cherish the friendship, bond, and love you share. Appreciate everything about them, everything that they do, and all that they have to offer. Thank you to every one of my friends who have ever been there for me, loved me, motivated me, or done anything for me or my family. I love you guys so much!